An hour ago I could feel myself beginning to be engulfed by those late night/early morning feelings of jealousy and hatred and I could have easily let myself be consumed by them (I usually do) but not tonight. I am so done hating myself and I am so tired of feeling inadequate. I am a wonderful person and I don’t deserve to just sit here and let that little voice inside me try to tell me I’m not. So I got up and exercised and I ate a healthy snack and I honestly feel so much better. I almost feel light in a way. It’s amazing.
I love spending time with my mom since we don’t get to see each other much any more Today we’re going out for lunch and then to the park to walk the trails. So happy it’s finally warm enough to go out and do things.
that was honestly the best workout i’ve had in a long time
i feel so good right now
You might notice that I no longer have my weight or my goal weight in my sidebar and that’s because over the past year my views on weight loss and my body has changed. I’ve come to the realization that my weight does not define me or my health. My weight is no longer an issue and I am not going to dwell on it. Please do not send me any asks asking me what I weigh/what my goal weight is because I will not answer them. I am still trying to adopt a healthier lifestyle but I am longer going to be using a scale. I am doing this to be healthier and to be able to fit in airplane seats/roller coaster seats/movie seats etc. comfortably, not to see a number on a scale go down.
Sorry I’ve been so MIA lately. Things have been kind of crazy but everything is starting to slow down for right now. So I’m back from that short break and hopefully I’ll be updating more from now on.